not all our decisions seem reasonable for everyone...
but if someone makes you become something you don't want to be, it is better to leave without giving explanations... only you know...

falling into a deep hole and not even wanting anyone to help me get out of it again..

Experience tells me that men will always find a way to deceive you.
So - be QUICKER!

I'm much more afraid of actually finding someone with whom a relationship could work than of being hurt by some random guy...

and the world is as you would never expect it to be...
life is incredible...it can be beautiful...it can give the most wonderful people ever and then, the next minute it will just be shit...
and it's not even worth asking why...or how...
the only thing that's worth doing is living...
not because you know you will be happy one day and you'll just have to be patient...no...I believe that not everyone can be happy...
but...because you have to prove yourself and everyone else, that you can handle whatever this fucking ironic life has in store for you...
even if sometimes you don't feel like you can handle it...
it's not a thing to choose...you will do it...somehow...

 wanderlust [ˈwɒndəˌlʌst]: very strong or irresistible impulse to travel

...loose yourself without getting lost...

if finding your way means leaving...not only home but also people..

then be strong, make your step out of the nest, follow your instinct and go.

but make sure you choose the right company for the trip

..it could be the trip of your life..